Death
ME
I need them today. It’s been two years since my brother died, I spent the first one drinking to cope with the pain.Then my anxiety and panic attacks kicked in so I went cold turkey, and started taking my meds, antidepressants and Xanax. I post a lot about alternative treatments but the truth is I cannot live without medication yet. I’ ve been here before, I was “cured” for 5 years and started meditation and did yoga and it helped. I hope I will soon be able to start living without pills.
The bottom line is I am seeking for an explanation or something that helps me understand what happens when you die. Why did my brother died? Wh did he have to suffer so many years? What is the point of this life? …
Yesterday we were about to have dinner with my husband and child, and I told him: “I do not know why but I a feel I am waiting for a call with bad news”. He told me not to think about it. Later I checked the hour on my phone and realized that the same day 2 years ago my sister called me to tell me my brother was in the hospital and to hurry up and go see him cause he was dying. It was sudden I have been with him two days ago, my last words were: “I’ll see you on Monday” and I kissed him. I never so him again and I never talked to him again.
He was 38 years old and battling with a brain tumor. I miss him everyday. I hope he rests in peace.
For my Brother.
“The moment that you died
my heart was torn in two,
one side filled with heartache,
the other died with you.
I often lie awake at night,
when the world is fast asleep,
and take a walk down memory lane,
with tears upon my cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it everyday,
but missing you is heartache
that never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart
and there you will remain.
#2
We little knew that morning,
God was going to call your name,
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.
You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.”
Whatever Works 